Nickle Annie

Sitting here,
Thoughts swirling in my head
Should I let you know?
How I feel about you
So far apart
But dear in my heart
You are always on my mind
Feelings I have never felt
In a long time are stirring
Do you feel the same way?
Am I imagining your yearning?
To release yourself
And be free
With Me
I ache to touch
Your Skin
Your Lips
Your Soul
Acts of wanton abandon
Just to see the slightest smile
A beautiful thing
I hear a song
Smell a scent
Everything reminds me of you.
When can we be together?
My Love
I cannot wait much longer
For I am fading into nothingness
Without you

It is kinda freaky that she sang this song since I just posted the lyrics on here a little while ago.

I'm leaving. For the 2nd annual Mom and Me fun weekend. Last year we went to "Mama Mia" in Winnipeg and I had a blast! This year we are going to "Chicago". I'm uncertain, other than the fact that I want to go there and be with my Michael. ***MWAHHHH***** I will update as soon as I get back.

Loves ya all!

I will leave you with this................
My Jonny and.......


my newest obsession, David Beckham.

:O)

Dana just Majorly Killed Bon Jovi............

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

If Zayra kills REM... I think I will rip my ears off!

God Help Us All!

Edit:She did kill it...but they liked it! Urg! What are they looking for?????

Edit #2But Dilana DID It! She WAs Awsome! I love her!

Lying in my bed I hear the clock ticks and think of you

Caught up in circles, confusion is nothing new
Flash back warm night, almost left behind
Suitcase of memories
Time after sometime you pictured me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're callin' to me
I can't hear what you've said
You said: "Go slow, I fall behind"
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, i'll be waiting
Time after time

I turn, my picture fades
And darkness has turned to grey
Watching through windows
You're wondering if I'm OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, i'll be waiting
Time after time

The earth turns and the wind blows and sometimes some marvelous scrap of paper is blown against the fence for us to find. And once found, we become aware there are places out there that are both foreign and familiar. Funny what the wind brings.

for your kind words. I really appreciate them.

I'm feeling better now. I was just really overwhelmed that day.

On happier news...

My Aunt and her boyfriend came in for a few days. They were suppose to be here for 10 days but D (the boyfriend) had to be back to have shoulder surgery today. He had torn a tendon at work and has been off for a while. It was a short visit but very fun (a lot of tipsy nights *wink*!)

I cannot wait until we go to Edmonton! We are all going to have a blast!

a slow and painful death. She has pancreatic cancer and has just gotten her 3rd stint put in her liver since January.

She helped to raise me.

I lived in the same yard as her on the farm for the first 5 years of my life. She cared for me when my mom had to go to work when I was 2 to help support the family my father could not/would not support.

I feel a part of me is dying.

Then my dad calls me today and tells me to tell her what I want of hers before she dies so that no one takes it.

I'm so upset. I am bawling. I told my dad that if she wanted me to have something she would give it to me. I'm not going to talk to her about what I want when she is dead.

I'm so lost right now.....

I just really need a break. I want to blog when I want and not have anyone expect me to. I'll be around. Seriously. If I'm not blogging I'll still be commenting on your blogs. I have made too many friends over the past year and so, I can't just drop you all.

And with that I leave you with the poem I got from my Mum and Dad in my Birthday card. I found it really special.

How to Make a Beautiful Life...

Love yourself.
MAKE PEACE with who you are
and where you are
at this moment in time.

Listen to your heart.
If you can't hear what it's saying
in this noisy world
MAKE TIME for yourself.
Enjoy your own company.
Let your mind wander among the stars.

Try.
Take Chances.
MAKE MISTAKES.
Life can be messy
and confusing at times,
but it's also full of surprises.
The next rock in your path
might be a stepping stone.

Be happy.
When you don't have what you want,
want what you have.
MAKE DO.
That's a well-kept secret of contentment.

There aren't any shortcuts to tomorrow.
You have to MAKE YOUR OWN WAY.
To know where you're going is only part of it
You need to know where you've been, too.
And if you ever get lost, don't worry.
The people who love you will find you.
Count on it.

Life isn't days and years.
It's what you do with time
and with all the goodness and grace
that's inside you.
MAKE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE...
The kind of life you deserve......